Hi KAW. Yes...please let me be that little voice of hope for you. My situation is one of the longest separations I have ever heard of and to STILL be working on things...amazing! We were at divorce's door a million times and the paralegal who finished our paperwork, watched us sign and then looked at us point blank and said "you two will never use these". Boy did that throw us into another tailspin. That was three months ago and now we are moving back in together. counseling visits are hard work but we go and talk through things. I do have to act "as if" a lot or I fall back on my old patterns. I worry so much about his moods and I have to let him "own" them and not worry so much about his issues. I still am working on me and will keep doing so...there is hope...I promise! Later!