Hello everyone...the last time that I visited this site was probably in 2001. My story actually began in 2000, when my husband of 6 years left me and our two sons due to depression. I have been on a huge roller coaster ride and believe it or not I am still hanging on. In the interim we have both had other relationships...mine(very serious) and his, a series of dates with other women. We have been in counselling both separately and together and now find ourselves rejoining again in the same house. We have tried this move many times before and I was either conflicted about my other relationship or our timing always seemed to be off. We never did make peace with a divorce or staying together. We made it as far as going to a papralegal and getting the papers done and signed. Now, we find oursleves together again and very scared and cautious. It will be our tenth anniversary soon and we are both hopeful for a happy ending this time. We want to give our two sons a happy life and are so desperately afraid of failing again. I need help because I can't always cry and show my fears to him. Trying to be upbeat and positive in front of him seems to work best for now. Am reading...focusing on me and my mental growth...trying to make positive changes and I just need some more support please and thank you......
