I haven't been a priority to myself in probably 6+ years. Even before that - I was focused on my H (Can you say co-dependent???)
I'm ok with him not being sure of his own feelings - it gives me a glimmer of hope - not all is lost as long as there is a glimmer.
The person he initially fell in love with was confident, social, happy-go-lucky. Now I'm self-conscious (2 kids and speeding towards 40 will do that for you!), withdrawn and quiet. I have a class tomorrow, plans on Thurs (just me) and Fri (me and kids) and Sunday coffee date with myself (unless I can find a friend to join me). I've stopped walking around the house hunched over with my head down, and apologizing for being in his way. Now I'm head up and doing my own thing. Fake it till you make it right?
