Sorry, just read your last post... I also think there are more important things than whether your WS respects you or not-- like do you respect yourself, and are you doing the right thing by the kids.
You have his D's interests first and foremost. I think that can never be the wrong path.
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing