Got a nice letter/reply from her attorney today. It basically said that I wasn't an involved father and me asking for custody seems like a ploy to better my case. The letter also mentioned the kids didn't want to be over due to me making disparaging remarks about my W, alcohol use and that I was late being home on a night I had to watch the kids.

I've completely stopped alcohol in front of my kids since November. Our relationship is basically non-existant.

I was pretty livid when I read it. I work 8 hours a day and commute 3 hours total and I've done that the last 12 years. I work a night or two a week as a firefighter. Outside of those hours, I was historically always extremely involved with my kids. It's amazing how things get spun in the divorce process to basically smear your name. I may have been out of the house working 12 hrs a day, but it afforded our family a great life and allowed my W to work part time to be home for the kids.

Guess what, she still only works part time. I seriously feel like she's holding on to the kids in effort to max out her potential future child support payments.

Short of that, she and I don't talk at all. We attended our son's athletic event this weekend and sat entirely apart. I am full blown LRT. Have a busy week this week with lawyer paperwork and fire dept continuing education.

More than anything else in the world, I really miss seeing my kids...