It's funny - I was thinking about this the other day and just think how strange it is that in 6 months I've addressed a lot of the issues that contributed to my failings in the M and just moved away from many of those problems. It's been hard work, but I put the work in. I'm sad that W felt she couldn't be bothered to try and watch me make these changes. I just needed the right type of help (i.e. IC)
Having said that, I did lie to her. I told her - behind a well of shame - that there was no more to reveal to her. Then she discovered everything all at once, a year later. I know that would have been devastating for her. I have total remorse for that. Rather than sit around feeling sorry for myself though, I've taken this chance to grow and become a better person. Yet another person at the weekend said how well I look considering everything, that I'm looking after myself which is the right thing to do.
Right now, I'm happy with my progress and know that there is no way I'd put myself in the same position. I know now to not feel like I can't be vulnerable. It's ok to be vulnerable.
I will still be a lighthouse, and I will have my picnic outside the castle.
Me - 36, W - 32 No kids T - 8 yr, M - 3 yr Discovery - 14 May 2019 S - 25 May 2019 & D bomb - 29 July 2019 D & House sale final - Feb 2020
