Patience and Limbo (Core thread 3)

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Thanks for the response Ovr.

I have no clue if we're on the mend or not after our reconciliation chat.

She is kinder, respectful and has shown interest in doing things as a family. She also says when were alone, without the kids around that we have nothing to talk about. Not true however other than talking about the relationship and kids, she's right. There is little I want to talk to her about.

I met up with a older friend this weekend who talked about their parents marriage and how horrible the H was yet they never divorced and made it work. It made me so angry. I did very little wrong. In fact, W states that she wasnt my focus, and that I did things for me and not her. Per DB rules and the alpha stuff I've read, thats how I should've acted so I dont get it. What was I supposed to do and what am I supposed to do?

We legit talked about living together for the next few years but no real talk about our relationship. Why live like that? Whats so hard about working through your own feelings, seeing that your H loved you with all his heart this whole time and restoring a family? Just because I wasnt perfect, made mistakes and didnt meet all expectations, this is the life she wants? How is 5 months time not enough space?

No one in my family deserves this. I gave emotional connection all these years, I tried to give physical affection yet at times, TV was too important to stop for a kiss. I gave love, not just thinking about what I would get back. I feel like minus my anxiety, I was a good and normal husband, I loved myself, my wife and my family. I'm tired of this limbo.