You are right. I am putting a lot of pressure on myself. I need to stop that ASAP. It is feeling a little desperate and I don’t like that. I need to take a deep breath and just go about my business. I feel like I am looking for a job and. It shouldn’t be that way.
I actually do have a date Tuesday night. He even called me on the phone! And we clicked really well. The on paper stuff that are the details are almost like god finally dropped a guy on my lap. He’s 51, divorced, in the town over where all my ex’s live, lol ( it’s a large town) he is a teacher. He is divorced. 2 sons, 17 and 19 ( perfect ages) and he married a Filipino, so his kids are half Filipino and I’ve always wanted to date one because I love the culture. But even better, he himself , is a Jew! ( makes my mom in heaven happy) he’s a foodie as I am. Our senses of humor match perfectly. He’s super cute. And he was worried because he is 5’8” and that’s a dealbreaker for some women on online dating, but it is actually the perfect height for me. He’s flirty, but Im a cute way, not in a rude turn off way.
I’m looking forward to this date. He picked a great place i know For a drink. I’m really looking forward to it. Not getting my hopes up, but I haven’t been excited for a date in a while. I was scared I was just kind of dead inside there for a while. It may be a total flop the date. But I don’t think so because the phone convo was great. Something to look forward to anyways.
