Thanks Juju. I know you are right. He didn’t treat me like he was invested in our relationship. I know I shouldn’t feel guilty. I just know I was one of the only bright spots in his life and I feel kinda bad for taking that away. He helped me through a tough time in my life and I didn’t want to make his more difficult. But after nine months....I knew it was time for me to do what is ultimately best for me and move on.
So...no date this weekend and I’m starting to think that maybe Brook has some flaws after all. I talked with him early Friday morning when he told me that he was taking his parents to the mainland. I commented that it looked as if we would have to take a rain check on our date and he responded that it may still be a possibility and that he would stay in touch. Not sure what his definition of staying in touch is but it’s not mine because I didn’t hear anything from him after that. So this morning I texted him good morning and he got back to me a minute later responding in kind and asking how I was. I told him I was great and asked him how his uncle was and he said doing much better so the prognosis isn’t as bad as they thought. I asked him if he had caught up on sleep and he said “almost” and “today might be a sleep day”. Translation... “I’m back home and I would prefer to sleep the day away than do anything with you.” We only live an hour apart...30 minutes if we met half way. Not exactly an onerous distance. I suppose I could have suggested we meet half way for coffee or something but I’m just done with being the person who always suggests things. He’s basically asked me out twice but hasn’t followed through with actually making plans. So I’m leaving it up to him.
IDK...maybe I shouldn’t read too much into it but it feels like maybe he is not quite as enthusiastic as he was a week ago for us to go out. No idea why but I refuse to chase him so I ended our conversation this morning and told him I had to take my dog for a walk and would talk to him later. I don’t get it... he was the one talking about the universe’s plan and something inside of him telling him he was “supposed to” message me. And that there was “something happening” between us that he was “excited” to see where it goes. All of that AFTER he saw me at the tournament. So what’s the deal? Maybe some of the guys on here could give me a male perspective? I am confused.
Oh...yeah... and Facebook guy just messaged me to ask how I am doing. He texts me about once a month. I’ve solidly friend zoned him though so it doesn’t bother me much. I guess maybe I should just friend zone everyone I meet...lol.
