So my book should be here Tuesday! I went out and got a haircut and a new cross stitch to keep me busy.
I am being cordial, but not chasing after him for conversation or finding reasons to talk to him like I usually would.
I am being vague about plans and he is actually asking follow up questions to them "I won't be home after work, I have an appt" - Usually I would tell him when and where and what time I'd be home. Now, I just leave it at that.
I'm trying hard to do the 180, but it is a struggle.
I'm not sure where the lines are - do I tell him about the cute things the kids did/said? Or just things that concern him as a parent.
It's so hard living together and going to bed together as we deal with this but we are trying to keep things as normal as possible for the kids until he saves up enough for an apartment.
I am such a planner and control person - I have a home planner, work one and a personal one. The fact that all of this is out of my control and I don't have a checklist or plan is really difficult for me. I always loved math because 1 + 1 = 2. I hated science because of all the variables - and this is all such a science!
To recap: I am not initiating conversation I am doing things for me I am giving limited details of what I'm doing I'm trying to GAL but I also don't want to leave my kids a lot I've got one book and the other on the way I'm trying not to look for hope when he initiates conversation or does nice things for me I'm dressing nice and doing my hair and makeup I'm always smiley and upbeat
