Thank you for another helpful reply AnotherStander. Today was a down day for me hopefully tomorrow is better. It feels like my wife has been diagnosed with cancer and I’m waiting for her to die. The grief is so strong sometimes. Then I have good days where I think I’m better and I’m past it and ready to move on with my life. I truly feel like I have been going through the stages of grief but they seem to be on repeat. Wash rinse repeat. Sometimes I wish I didn’t love her it would make this so much easier. I feel like I should hate her for cheating on me, but I understand she felt lonely in our marriage for a long time and taken for granted. I know that doesn’t excuse her behavior. She should have left before her acting on anything, but I do understand it. We are all human and need to be loved. I want to know if I should try to start dating? Would that help me mentally or just cause confusion in me? She says she wants me to date. She wants me to be happy and to find someone who can give me what she can’t. But I am not sure what to do.
