DnJ- I think I’ll have to read your post several times later when I have more time. Hopes/expectation/fantasy....all muddled together right now. I’m sure there is lots of wisdom in there so I will have to slowly chew through that.
Cardinal- enjoy the nice moments. But keep it simply that- enjoy the present but let it go. My H resurfaces too but I know it’s just a matter of time before he goes back to his abyss again. Nothing against him, and I know it’s not about me. Like you, I feel my love for him too at those moments. Oh how I wish those moments could last. But it’s like saying how I wish tomorrow wasn’t Monday. I know Monday will come, just like I know my old H will be gone again.
Keep doing what you’re doing, until one day H comes back fully, or until you are ready to say goodbye. Time is your friend.
