I have a realtor coming out next weekend to do a market analysis on the home. I’d have to see if I can manage because she has 2 other credit cards in her name she is wanting to split with me. The $15000 would pay off the one with her 10,000 for her going through the administration program for college. Like I said it’s the easy way out for her. Not sure I’m wanting to make it easy for her when I may be struggling to get by for a while.

I did change checking accounts over so she isn’t liking that idea because the mortgage and all the drafts would be coming out of her account. Obviously I told her I’d pay half the mortgage and the other bills until she moves out. She is ready for this and I need to be ok with going in that direction. She has currently stopped wearing her wedding ring and I think she is meeting up with him.

She started going back to the gym to work out. Been going with a friend from 8-9. I picked up food last night and noticed he was at the gym at 8:00. Can’t continue to live like this so it’s time. Thinking I will take off one day next week and borrow the money to pay my lawyer. $2800 isn’t bad and I don’t think she will use a lawyer. She has already filled out papers online but hasn’t done anything with them. It’s been over a week so I’m sure she isn’t in a hurry.

Living in a small community and having this happen has finally made me feel humiliated and ashamed.