Eh, that conversation has died. Haven’t heard from him and I was tired of pulling teeth.

My day began so badly at work today. But I’m going to focus on the highlights of my day.

My coworker told me how great I am at my job, how I’m always positive ( yeah, me!) and I’m just a great person. She also doesn’t understand why I am still single, lol.

Then my male coworker, who is my perfect guy, except he is married, was coming out of a room today as I was going towards it and said “woah, you are looking good! You are losing weight!” And gave me “eyes” and that hand outline of the hour glass figure thing guys do. Now, he knew I was doing keto back when, because we exchanged recipes so he could comment on my weight. And we have that kind of relationship. It felt really good that a person actually noticed, and it is a guy . And one I happen to like. Don’t worry folks, I’m not chasing after men. But he is an excellent example of what I should be looking for.

Ive been committed to the gym. And today was the hardest workout I’ve endured yet. Half of the class was a partner workout which I dreaded. But I got myself a partner and we actually came in second place after the guy team, now she is very tall, so I’ll give her about 60% of the credit. My weakness is the treadmill, but I kill it on the rower and strength exercises. I wanted to vomit, but I can’t believe how good I did amongst these very fit people. I think I’m getting my mojo back in the gym. My feet aren’t even killing me today which is great.

I also hit a new time low, however. I joined tinder. I swore I never would. Lots of guys admittedly looking for an affair partner on there! Some seem half decent. I got over 100 likes in less than 24 hours. Weird. I know what I want in life but right now, I’d probably settle for an activity partner. There is just all this stuff I want to do, and it’s no fun without someone else.

I’m alive. Some days I feel like my soul died. But I know it’s not. It does need a little CPR though.

I’m reading the stories on here about everyone is finding what was meant to find them. These people who are coming into your lives and well, giving you this new part of your life again. Giving you hope for love. And I love reading other successes. Givens me an ounce of hope