Journal -

So there´s this girl...we matched on Tinder right after Christmas and it was a slow start. I just assumed we probably won´t even meet like most other matches. But we´ve kept in touch and have been messaging each other every day. She knows about what has happened and the time period of it all but not details on how painful it was for me and what a nightmare 2019 was.

We were supposed to meet last week but she got sick. I immediately got suspicious but saw her instastory that she was home sick in bed for a few days. So the plan is that we´re going to meet tomorrow or Wednesday. A few days ago I kept looking at my phone, hoping she would message me and got an email from W with a screen shot from the local police warning dog owners in the area since one dog was poisoned and died. She wrote please be careful with pug. I hadn´t even thought of W in a while when I got it so I answered the following day and thanked her. I also added that the pug is doing fine and attached a recent photo of him. She responded almost immediately.

W: "Aww, my cute little boy. Omg that's adorable!!! Little fat munchkin ❤️

Have to have him soon, now I have more room, and live at xxx street"

I was surprised she would give me her address and that place is just 5 min walk from where I live. Also surprised she thinks she can have him. I still haven´t responded and probably won´t.

On Friday I had a get together at my house where some of my female friends(my W knows them very well and they used to get along) saw my pug for the first time. Three of them were cuddling with him at one point and I filmed that. Just a very cute video and part of me wanted to send it to W but I stopped myself since I had made it clear I don´t want to be her friend.

I keep thinking about this girl from Tinder. Not only is he beautiful but she´s so different from all the others I´ve been writing with. Anyway, too early to tell. I´ll let you know how it goes after I´ve met her.

On Feb 6 it´s the anniversary of my BD. Can´t believe it´s almost been a year. I look so different physically today.(AS has seen the pics so he knows smile ) I feel so different mentally. I´m proud of myself and feel thankful to everyone here for all your support. Thank you everyone!


Me: 38
Stbxw: 35
No kids
Mini bd: February 6, 2019
ONS confirmed Sept 7, 2019
Told her to move out: September 8, 2019
W moved out: September 28, 2019
Divorce filed by me: September 23, 2019