Patience and Limbo (Core thread 3)

[Core]

LH, thank you. It would probably take all night to get through them all! For you and anyone listening, this is where my mind is.

These bug me the most:
Lost time with kids if we D
Impact on the kids from losing their home, family structure, and school district
Help- I've very little help with the kids outside of Ws family and friends
Diet- kids and I would eat way worse if we D
Loneliness - ive had very few serious relationships before W. I havent been successful with women. When I finally was successful, I reverted on what made me strong and attractive. Dont want to lose that again.
Retirement- i started 401k late. Likely to not retire until after 72-75 if we D.
Kids-who knows what type of man would raise them
Dying alone
Finding a woman who is crazy, diseased or harmful to the kids if I d.
Finding someone I love and going through this again at the 5-10 year itch
Finding someone, then have W want to reconcile
Going months on end with no physical contact
Living with parents or in a small apartment with no ownership

As Captain America says, I could go all day.