Last night I had a dream H did something mean and I started yelling, Who are you? while shaking and hitting him, as if I could snap him out of this back into the man I know. Not much interpretation required there—I know this is what I’ve wanted to do even as I maintain a calm front and strive for empathy!
Lol!! This made me laugh! I’ve been having dreams about H also. I’m at a way better place now but I’m still not sleeping as well as before. I think about us too much. I read this site too much. Sometimes it feels necessary to keep thinking about certain issues until I have new clarity, yet other times everything just feels so overwhelming.
Don’t let your anger take over. Accept the fact that it is happening. And it’s probably not a totally bad thing that it happened. As messed up as my current M is, I still honestly appreciate my H’s BD. It was a wake up call.
