May It’s entirely possible and I’ve thought about it but he tends to have good days with me and the family out of guilt.. Honestly his behavior confirms when he’s seen her. He gets very helpful and offers to do things he didn’t even do when we were good. He shows love with acts of service. Always has. Now it’s showing guilt. But even by that standard the morning texts from no where about nothing are entirely out of character for the alien. Also the old husband. Old husband morning texts were sweet and doting. Alien and I have gone I think up to 8 days with out saying a word to each other. Not stone walling. Just two ships passing in the night avoiding the hell out of any conversation that could possibly veer into dreaded R talks. I was faking it until I made it with detaching even before I finished reading DR. I’m still clearly faking it until I make it. I struggle on the calm days most. Ive gotten very good at acting as if I’m detaching. I’m working on internally staying out of the fray entirely, not just emoting detachment. Tonight he wanted my help with that damn bacon dividing the poundage, how to transport it best. asked the best way to cook it for dinner, wanting my reassurance while he prepped everything. I USED to make every meal in the house. Not so much since BD. He Wanted to watch a movie with the kids all of us together. And helped me fold laundry during. Kept trying to engage me in surface conversation. He sent snaps (picture message via snap chat) of him prepping dinner directly to 2 of my friends that I know he knows they know damn near everything. If he isn’t breadcrumbing I’d say it more likely he’s cake eating before he runs his own arbitrary timeline out.
Please trust that I’m focused on getting my life and budget right for his magic April date. But you’re right I could definitely be more focused.
