You're doing great OG. I second Steves suggestion re listening to music - I set up a playlist of songs which I could scream at the top of my lungs (when he wasn't there of course). My girls and I would jump around the kitchen or sing (mostly out tune). I found Praying a really good one and anything by the Eurythmics.
Stand up comedy is good too - when I was really down and needed to laugh.
I love music, so this is a great reminder! Getting my body to move definitely helps. I notice today I did pretty great most of the day, and then I just have an hour where it feels so freaking hard. I question everything I'm doing and feel hopeless. So then I came here, and I'm doing my best to pick myself back up. Thanks for all your support!
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