Been a bit since I posted on here. Things remain the same in the Sitch but feels a whole lot worse. W has initiated R talks twice in the past week and it is more of the same. Too little too late, Why now, Torn, Angry, etc. She had made it clear she wants nothing to do with me outside of the kids. It cuts deep every time I realize this. I know I am failing at this, this is supposed to be for me but I keep getting my hopes up and then shot down. It’s only been 2 weeks but feels like 2 months. Everything she said that she has ever wanted is right there in front of her but I can’t get her to let go of the hate and grab it.
I have such a hard time understanding the why. Why break up the family, why go through the pain, why struggle financially, why do this. I’m seeing doctors but I can’t move on. I know she hurting, I know it’s selfish to only think of me.
