Awww, thank you. ha who, thank you. I just always saw such an amazing mom and woman in you who deserved the world.
J- thank you. I didn’t have a mom role model so this role really scared me when I had to go at it alone. And while I haven’t been perfect, there is no doubt that child feels safe, loved, and important because of me. And that’s all that really matters. Maybe this is my sole purpose right now.
She saw me looking at bumble the other night. She doesn t want me to date. She couldn’t answer why. I’ve been just as good of a mom even when I do. She recently told me she missed one of my ex boyfriends, the first one she ever met. He was her favorite. She told me she was not a fan of FF, and M was her second favorite. I think the reason is because she doesn’t like to see me hurt when we break up.
Maybe, just maybe I’m supposed to wait until she is on her own, I am moved and life for ME will begin. I’ll still be in my 40’s. Maybe in the meantime I should just keep it casual. I actually changed my bumble profile to reflect that. I said I was hoping for the real deal one day, but until then, someone to hang out with and enjoy outings together and some Netflix and cuddle would be nice.
Dreading going into work today. But tonight we have a a free food and drink event. And I’m looking forward to that as D 12 will be at her dads. This weekend she has a sleepover at my house. She is really excited .
