I came home tonight after the gym, cooked dinner, cleaned up, showered, and I was about to sit down and ice my feet.......
And it’s like 8 pm and my daughter says she wants me to straighten her hair. And I said “no way, no tonight, I don’t have the energy and it’s late” she then tells me she needs to be able to do it on her own and she will do it herself. Well, she has a monsterous head of curly hair with no left handed coordination and is terrified of he flat iron. I cried in my room because I’m at my breaking point and I hated the fact I had no energy to help my daughter do her hair. When you have a girl entering her teen years and she wants to do something with you as simple as her hair..... you don’t say no.
So I ended up doing her hair. My feet were killing me and I was exhausted and I ah e to go to work early tomorrow to finish up today’s work.... but I did her hair. And when she hugged me and said “mommy I love you so much. Thank you for doing my hair” my heart just melted.
I’m not going to lie. If it wasn’t for her, I don’t know how much I would care about life. I’ve done so much inner work, outer work, made every effort in my life to make the right decisions, to better my life and honestly, for what? To struggle every day? But for my daughter. Well, if my sole purpose on this earth is to be her mom and I was meant for nothing else? I am fine with that.
