We still have not been intimate. I know I need to have that awkward convo with her about testing. I agree it is widely under-discussed in our community, I'm just nervous about the weirdness of it all. This probably stems from the fact that I have not had many partners (less than a full hand) and when ww and I started dating we were young and dumb - never had the talk other than the I've never had an STD blanket statement. Ugh it turns my stomach to even think about her with OW. Alas, before getting to that point it is something I know needs discussion.
I am definitely proceeding with caution. I am also finding myself a little fearful of jumping back in too quickly. She has asked me to come over every night since reconciliation. I guess I'm just craving my own space kind of thing. It's like my brain is telling my heart:
"Wait! Slow down, do don't this too quickly because you could get hurt again. Go back home and make sure single KG is still happy without W."
Don't get me wrong. I'm elated inside thinking that maybe we could get through this on the other side together. It's just like a "pinch me, is this real" kind of feeling.
WW is being very thoughtful, caring, and affectionate. I have noticed she is self correcting if she acts like a jerk. This is new behavior. Previously, when she got snippy or hateful, she would sulk and want to be alone until it passed. The last couple of weeks if she has said something short or hateful she quickly acknowledges her mood and apologizes. Much improved.
KG
LBW 32 - me WW 31 T 7 M 4 No Kids 4 dogs
Separated 1y Navigating the mine field and GAL with or without
