I am in the same place as you. In my case, the waiting period has passed and he can go down anytime now and finish this marriage off. I had some last business I had to do with him yesterday and I held it together and did it. Still has the frigging wedding ring on. That I will never get. I bit the bullet and sent him a list of accounts he will have to switch to his name whenever he does that. And now I am done. It was so painful talking to him and seeing him that I don't want to do it anymore. I'm on my island of going dark and I'm staying there until he either does it or wants to talk about R. I'n not done crying either. It's 31 years in my case. Luckily, there aren't any kids to deal with.
I've found that going to a divorce group is somewhat helpful. It took awhile to do it because that required admitting it was going to happen. I have found a good podcast that helps. Google is your friend in that regard.
I wish we knew each other. It would be nice to talk to someone in the same situation. I have to believe we will both get through it and find some peace.
