Process is just beginning. I’m sure from here it only gets as ugly as I want to make it. She definitely wants the easy way out with doing it online. I think everything has come to a head. Her job is no longer in jeopardy so she can move forward without fear of me using evidence against her. She has cried all night and I haven’t been a comfort for her. She came in mentioning the good times and memories etc... Amazingly I feel pretty good about it.

I think I am at the place of accepting whatever may happen. I will not just agree to everything she sets out in the papers. She wants split custody and 50/50 split of debt and assets. We only owe on our house and credit cards and we have no assets other than equity in our home. I did tell her I would not leave my home and that I might just buy out her half. I think I might could manage.

Do most women get this emotional when they start the process? She can’t stop crying. I’m not buying it though because I know it’s just about guilt and shame for what has been done.