Job, thanks for the reminder. I should not be making life-altering decisions I may regret later while feeling so emotional. I just feel at this point that H does not even deserve reconciliation (if that ever becomes a possibility); he deserves to run head first into the wall he is headed for so he can realize all he has lost. But...my kids deserve an intact family, so I will fight to hold out for them as long as I can. That way, I will not feel the guilt of having given up too soon for their sake (or having broken my vows without giving it my best fight). Sigh. The saga continues. Thanks job.
H and Me - Both 45; S13 and D9 BD - 11/2019 Married 14 years; Together 20 years
