So...I’m about 85% better after a really crappy week of a severe cold. In addition to fighting off an illness, I’m also fighting some nerves this morning. I’ve been chatting online with Brook all week and today my D12 and I are heading to my home town to watch some basketball games. I had mentioned to Brook that D12 was starting to get into basketball but hadn’t really seen it played at a higher level so he suggested I bring her to the tournament to see how much fun it can be. I mentioned it to her and she was super excited about the idea so it has become mommy/daughter day (XH’s day technically but he was happy to give it up so we could do this) and a way for Brook and I to lay eyes on each other without the pressure of a “first date”. I am still super nervous though. Even though I’ve seen his picture and he’s seen mine, he is still 17 in my head and I’m sure it is the same way for him. I am hoping, at the very least, that we have rekindled a good friendship but it is not lost on me what a great story it would be (and an ironic one) if we ended up in a relationship after 30 years and my first love became my last love.
Obviously there is a very slim chance of that happening but you never know. Certainly he is the kind of guy I had in my mind that would be a good match for me... close to my age, similar life stage, kids that he has a good relationship with, self sufficient with a good career, community-minded, positive outlook on life, tall, boyishly cute, active but not fanatically so and smart. And someone who will text me first...lol. Yesterday I was sitting down to lunch at work and thought that I should text him to see if his team won the night before and just as I was thinking that, my phone dinged and it was him telling me they had won...lol. Last night I texted him to say “good luck” and he took the time to thank me while he and his team were standing in the tunnel waiting to go out on the floor. So...it’s all pretty hopeful but I’ve learned not to put the cart before the horse so I’m keeping everything in perspective.
Speaking of texting... Jack has been finding a reason to text me every day....something he didn’t do when we were together. He now has the cold that I had last week so says he is spending all weekend in bed. I think he misses me. He really doesn’t have too many friends from what I can tell so I’m not surprised. I am really hopeful he and I can stay friends. I am also hoping he decides to take a job on the mainland. I think he really needs a fresh start.
Anyway...off to face the day. Really looking forward to spending it with D12 and showing her a little bit of what my world was like before I became her mom.
