I agree w/Peace. The LBS do create better lives and we land on our feet. Each and every poster is a survivor whether they reconcile or not. We all have travel through the valley of being bomb dropped, the pain, hurt, anger frustration and the merry-go-round of emotions. Once we go through all of the grieving and not try to go around it, we begin to see the light of day, begin to see life w/clear eyes and then we begin to think w/our heads and not our hearts and we know what we need to do to survive, watch finances and look towards the future.
It does take a lot of time to get to the other side, but you will get there. Try not to second guess or wonder about the "what ifs". Don't try to analyze his every word or move because it will drive your crazy. It's important to you keep the focus on you and what you need to do to heal and survive.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.