Thank you for finally coming forward and creating a thread of your own. As you can see, posters are interested and want to help you if they can.
My concern is that if your h is coming here and reads your situation, he may put two and two together. Also, if you both are using the same computer, he may very well check the system to see where you've been, i.e., just as you put two and two together w/the book purchase and then lurking here for a time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
