You're simply looking for sympathy. I don't think you're going to find it here. You have no empathy for your own W and no clue what you are even doing to yourself. Rondo hit it on the head with the moral clarity statement. Fish or cut bait. It's not complicated. You are screwing around on your W, you're lying and cheating, and it's your life you're ultimately screwing up. Read the stories around this board... I'll point you to a few who had to deal with the fallout from this kind of bs. It sounds like you're only attracted by the excitement of it all. Sorry to say this, but 99% of all affairs do end badly. And they maul nearly as many Ms. There comes a time in any R when you have to choose to love your partner. Even if by chance your A works out into a long term relationship, there will come a day you wake up and look at her and the initial attraction ain't there. And what kind of commitment can you and OW expect out of each other once the excitement and attraction go away? Doesn't seem as if there's much to base a relationship on. Grow up! Like Rondo, I wonder your age. Pretty hard reading your posts with the new-agey techno-English.
Strange... I haven't picked up a really good 2X4 in ages
