I no longer see these friendlier interludes as indicative of any long-term positive trend, but the problem is that I know there is a tiny subconscious part of my brain that is collecting positive interactions and hoping, hoping, hoping, while the rest of my brain is saying, "THE D IS COMING! You will be disappointed. Why do you keep doing this?" It seems to run in the background like some computer virus...
That is the roller coaster ride we all get on inadvertently from time to time. good times, bad times, the highs and the lows.....it is hard work to make a conscious effort to get off that roller coaster. but once you do, you'll be closer to finding peace.
