Occasionally I tip my toes in the dating pool but I always get scared off. Either I'm not ready or I just haven't met the right person. Other times I find myself missing my ex tremendously and fantasizing about all the things I could have done differently when we were married. Although I doubt any of it would have helped. <snip> So I guess the hardest part for me now is trying to determine where I'm "at" emotionally and being ok with not knowing...
Welcome to the "far shore". I'm not familiar with your story but it does seem that you are an aware person.
A dear friend of mine once told me that she'd know that I had moved on when I was defined by what is in front of me rather than what was behind. It's excellent advice. There's undoubtedly no huge rush to get back in to the dating pool. Take the time to figure out who YOU are and what YOU want in your life first. Many find that they are perfectly fine being single.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells