Thank you guys. It did feel good and I slept the best I had since the bomb. Not perfect sleep but better sleep.
The last day we had R talks was on Saturday. I was still doing the wrong things then but she stated that she was doing the D for the both of us. She had asked me a few weeks ago if the R was a factor in my depression and since it is I answered truthfully. She stated she has been emotionally checked out for months but she did try and connect in December by her words with a small touch at a party and asking to sit next to me at another. I failed to recognize both of these actions.
Since we told the kids I can’t imagine that she will just continue like this for much longer. It’s not in her nature. I’m trying to mentally prepare myself for the next R talk and action to move things along by her.
