I also remembered that right before (literally hours before) our court date in November, he was being extremely cold and business like, almost angry and aggressive. Afterwards is when he expressed wavering. If nothing else, it’s a reminder to me that he hides all other emotions behind that front. This allows me to realize that no, I am not crazy and I have not been imagining the way things have been, nor have I imagined the things he said in November. He needs to believe that his feelings about this have always been that he is sure he wants a divorce and that he has not doubted that. He needs to convince himself of that, and that I am delusional for thinking anything else could have been happening. But that doesn’t mean I need to buy into that false narrative.
