Thanks a lot for the reply! Yes, I am scared, I get all this social pressure from most of the people around me that when a woman has made this strong decision it is forever, I have had lawyers, therapists, family and common friends telling me to get over it and go on with my life as this is final.
Now I know I cannot be scared, between fear and hope I have chosen the second. But yes with all the pressure in my head I fear D, I have days when I feel like an idiot for fighting for my marriage. Everyone says, the longer you let her have a life without you, the more she will move on from you. I even have people telling me they have seen her with someone. She has been living there for 2 months and as we separated she told me I was the problem, I had to change and she wanted to be alone. My sick mind is playing tricks on me, but anytime these thoughts come I replace them with thoughts about me being a good man, my ability to change and my ability to have this 2.0 M that you speak about.
I started reading DR for the 3rd time yesterday and it amazes me how I continue to find new concepts there. The book is an oasis in the middle of this situation, to tell me what to control and what to change.
I have already hired a lawyer, my 180 is going to be to be happier, a better christian and a better man on every aspects of my life and also to stop any conversation outside the children. you are absolutely right Steve, my M where I neglected my W and I made her feel like she was not the number one priority in my life is dead and for the better. thanks a lot
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Me 29 W:29 M: 5yrs T:10yrs S:6 yrs S:1 yr BD: "I want a D" 08/09/19 Sep: 10/27/19
