Flying solo and dropping the rope

[Thornton]

Happy New Year everyone! I hope 2020 is much better than 2019 for all of us!

Journaling...

I've been around on the board lately but haven't been posting much as there isn't anything going on with my ex. In fact, we haven't spoken (or seen each other) in about 4 months.

I've recently bought a new condo and have moved in. The excitement and pre-occupation with decorating etc has been a welcome distraction for me. However, now that I'm settling in, the loneliness has been pretty hard to overcome. I find myself really missing my ex and ruminating on all our good memories. I try hard to remember all her negative qualities in an effort to detach, but I still miss her terribly. For those of you who haven't followed my sitch, I was with my ex for 9 years and she has left me 4x.

In a nutshell, I feel stuck. I know GAL is imperative to turn my mindset but I don't feel like doing much of anything. I'm doing well at work and I still hit the gym 4-5 times a week, but still struggling with depression and anxiety. I guess I thought I would be doing better by now.

I'm not really sure where to go from here...

Thorn