If you can get an individual counselor 1-2 x a week to help sort through the pain
we have to grieve and it hurts ..so if you can take the time alone to be there to self care;
journel cry embrace the pain and it will pass..this is very painful..no way around the pain support groups spiritual groups, places of worship, readings of your personal religion or beliefs read exercise sleep or rest u tube videos of positive messages meditate breathe
if he is a heavy drinker you can attend alanon to learn and get support there also
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