U, you read me like a book. I follow your thread as I often see you post the same things I'm feeling or thinking. I like to think I'm a smart dude but when its comes to emotional awareness, I swear D4 is already smarter than me. I am workingon it though. My IC told me she's noticed immense growth. I do continue to waste mental energy in hypothicals. Glad you pointed that out. Something to continue to work on.
Core ~ I react strongly to your thread because I see a lot of myself in you.
I should be clear what I mean by emotional awareness - I mean understanding not just my emotions, but also how they are entangled with thoughts. One feeds the other. Anxiety is a beast... even thinking about your anxiety makes you anxious, right? That impulse to resolve anxiety has driven me to make some really lousy and unhealthy choices.
As far as concerns about your kids, I moved out 6 months ago, and the QUALITY of my time with my kids has grown exponentially. I'm not saying that happens for everyone. But it seems the study was wrong in my case. Studies are conglomerations of statistics. Studies are often designed to give the desired answer for whomever designed it. Studies probably show your MR probably has <50% chance of R. Does that mean you are going to give up? Of course not. You are 1 of 1, screw the statistics.
Sorry if the above comes across strongly. It's taken some 2x4s from the vets to help me snap out of some deeply entrenched patterns.
