W and I have a phone call scheduled this weekend. She didn't respond on the options yet (or acknowledge the e-mail - par for the course).
One of my NY resolutions is to reduce my rambling post rate here =) I recognize the anxiety trap - it feels good to pour out my feelings, but it also exacerbates the anxiety by thinking about it too much.
Like most resolutions we'll see how long this one lasts!
I found that not putting it out there or not posting it just made it live in my head longer, but to each his own.
