I need to just go to sleep before my emotions cause me to act out of desperation by calling or texting H and saying something completely the opposite of what DB advises.
Your head is mostly in the right place!!! Don’t call, don’t text, don’t ask....
My mood was down earlier too, I do find it helpful to concentrate 110% on the kids when they are around. S10 was looking at his baby pictures today and we laughed together on how chubby of a baby he was. H is missing all these small moments, something he will never get back.
