Can anyone tell by my last post that I am driving myself insane wanting to FIX this which is absolutely impossible for me to do alone? I have decided I should just go to bed early tonight because I have shut myself in the bathroom crying and praying silently so my children cannot hear for the past 15 minutes. H is not at home and I see the usual signs that he likely will not return until morning. I want to scream but have to suffer in silence trying to stay strong for the children. I need to just go to sleep before my emotions cause me to act out of desperation by calling or texting H and saying something completely the opposite of what DB advises.

I need a good swift kick in the pants to get me out of this mood!!!

Last edited by HesAble; 01/03/20 02:07 AM.
H and Me - Both 45; S13 and D9
BD - 11/2019
Married 14 years; Together 20 years