The places I've been the last two years really have been amazing. But I've had other amazing experiences closer to home which I don't talk about much here. I take the time to appreciate where I am. London is beautiful. I simply stopped looking (children, mortgages, jobs). I changed the way I looked at things and I try and remember the person I was when I first moved here - I was enthralled by London. I am enthralled again.
A bit of a change, a bit of the same. We are friendlier then we have been in a long time. Not friendly lets sit down and discuss the meaning of life - we keep our cards close to your chests - but friendly in that I offer him a cup of tea when he comes over, he accepts, and then I go into another room or potter around the house. I get A LOT of house work done when he is here !!!!
**** I have a question - our mortgage deal is up soon and if we don't get a new deal we will automatically be moved to the variable rate (which would be considerable more than I pay now). We haven't discussed what we are doing with the house yet as that would mean we would have to talk about something other than the weather or kids. Two important factors:
1) If we get a new deal, we will be bound for at least another two years. 2) I've just secured a new role, but it is only for three months, and even if we do decide to keep the house for another two years, I am not sure we could secure the mortgage as I cannot prove earnings after the three months are up. I am pretty confident that I can secure a more long term position say in a month, but 'pretty confident' won't have much sway with the banks.
Should I initiate a conversation with my H knowing that it will lead to an R conversation - asking if he wants to keep the house for another two years is an indirect way of saying "Is there still any hope for us?".
