Interesting quick update - he texted me at midnight saying Happy New Years. I was asleep so answered it this morning and said same to you - I'd like to take you to lunch or for coffee if you're up to it. I then went on a jog with a friend and left my phone in the car. When we were done, he had texted back and also called, saying he would like to. I was very relieved.
We meet up for lunch, and he brings a book that his IC gave him about C-PTSD so he can show me. When we walk in, he immediately says he is sorry for how he acted yesterday and that he hadn't taken his medicine and was also caught off guard by me. I said I was caught off guard, too, and not prepared. He said he wanted to also address that I maybe was taken off guard by his friend being there, too, as I've voiced not wanting him to bring people over when I am not there. He opened up more about his IC, and how he felt about yesterday, and I did more talking than I normally do. I opened up about that, and about how glad I am that we are talking more and how it helps me understand, and I thanked him for showing me the book. We finished lunch and switched convo to silly group gossip. He is back at his mom's instead of his friend's and isn't sure how long he will be in town, so I let him know it's OK if he wants to stay over at our house any. He asked what I was doing the rest of the day, and I said no plans. He said he may go socialize w/ some of our friends and then go home and read the book. We left it at that. I feel a lot better - I know my feelings should not be so tied to his treatment of me, but I spiraled last night about worrying that everything was ruined. We both owned our behavior yesterday, and are still making efforts, and I think that's a good thing.
