Happy New Year everyone!! The Dr. and I went out last night, got a hotel room and bar hopped around town last night. We had way too much too much to drink and passed out around 11:30. We woke up this morning, had some really cheap Waffle House breakfast which did wonders for my hangover. I had never had WF but the Dr had it in med school so she wanted to go.
Last night at dinner the Dr. told me she was fully committed to me and we got on the subject of my mom who has Parkinson's. The Dr. told me that she would be fully there for me and how I needed to get my mom to where we live ASAP because over the next 10 years or so her quality of life is going to diminish and since I am her only child the responsibility will fall on me. I have always known this but just have kind of put it out of my mind. Needless to say the Dr. has thought about all of this and was telling me how she would support me, my girls, my mom and that we would do what is necessary to ensure she is happy.
I was like a deer in headlights with this conversation. I didn't know what to say as I have never experienced this type of love and support from a woman and is nothing like I would have received from my XW. For the most part I just sat and listened, I also broke down a couple of times with some tears as I thought about my mom, her situation and also just how the Dr. is so giving, caring, sweet, loving and compassionate. It is so very different for me, to have someone love me and care for me in ways that my XW never did or could.
Her being around me and just my presence is enough for her. I don't do anything really, go out of my way, make these big gestures, etc. she just totally loves me for who I am. I don't push anything, get bogged down in heavy conversations, etc.
We both have been kid free since Friday and I have been with her every day and night in some capacity. I have so many emotions swirling in my head that it is very hard to process them all. I guess I am starting to feel some pressure because they conversations are becoming more real.
