Thank you. I wanted to try to understand so I dont make the same mistake over, but you're right - this one is irrational and out of left field so it doesnt matter. I had fun with friends but this was still weighing on me big time. I did cave a minute ago and call him - I tried not to, but I was focusing on all of the negatives. I'm actually glad I called - he answered (I was over hyping his anger to levels where I thought he wouldnt answer) and I kept it upbeat and short. I said I wasnt OK with how I acted earlier today, and that I'm sorry that I made him angry and that his feelings are important to me. He said thank you and that he appreciated me saying that to him. I said I wasnt ready to talk about some stuff because of the other night and shouldnt have pushed a talk for either of us (wasnt a R talk but was emotions based). I asked what he was up to, he said sitting on friends couch. I said I was glad hes able to stay there, and he said yeah, it's nice to not have nobody (said as upbeat joke tbh). I then said I hope he has a nice new years eve and he wished me the same and we got off the phone. I feel worlds better about owning my piece of todays interaction, both to myself and him. I also now feel more reassured that he isnt just stewing angry and that I was obsessing over that. We do still need a talk about boundaries. Idk what will happen next but I can calm down for now at least.
