Believe me, I'm thinking and feeling both those things. Her mind can't or refuses to grasp the same logic.
She got in to things I've said in the past that hurt her, probably trying to justify her lying and having an EA. Still no answers on her end, avoiding the issue and its looking like she wants to go back to limbo. OM is still friends/following her on social media yet I'm the bad guy for not trusting her. I cant tell if her reactions were that of someone getting caught in an EA or were truthful. Her ability to lie and manipulate is very finely tuned. I do actually get the vibe that she was telling the truth though and is or was somehow holding out to see what happens in our relationship. Yet verbally none of that is communicated. I have to be a mind reader which is normal for us and part of what got us here.
Thing is, how am I supposed to make 100% perfect improvements with no slip ups while it seems OM is in the picture, while divorce is held over my head and while she remains critical, judgmental, invalidates and remains cold?
H37, W37 D4, S2 ILYBNILWY 9/19 BD 9/19 EA discovered 10/19 Currently in limbo, no D or S process initiated
