Confused and Lost II

[KristinG]

Guys thank you all so much for the advice and feedback.

Last night I got suckered into an R talk - the first time in months. WW asked yet again why I don't wear my wedding ring. She felt as though I am seeing someone else and thus removed my ring. I tried to stay very calm and explain that I removed my ring because it didn't feel right to wear it while she was dating someone else. She didn't deny anything and kept pushing me for how I'm feeling, etc. I broke guys. I told her that I have decided that I'm done living in an open relationship. That I'm done waiting. That she has been sleeping with someone else for over a year. I told her that I want nothing more than a future with her, but that I will not continue in a painful and toxic relationship. I left.

She called me on my way home and, like a sucker, I answered. She was crying and I tried listening and validating. She told me everything would be ok and she knows what she has to do etc. Then, as if nothing had happened, said that she would cook us dinner tomorrow (today). I told her that, no, I don't want her to call me, I don't want to hang out with her, and I want to remove myself from this open relationship.

She hung up and quickly changed attitudes via text. First, I got the "you just send me papers and I'll sign and never bother you again" text. Then, I got the "go be with whomever you took that ring off for" text. I did reply but only because I felt as though I needed the conversation last night to have some semblance of closure for me. I told her that I have even so much as flirted with anyone and that I don't want a divorce, or any of this but I won't stay while she is dating someone else. She abruptly ended the conversation with another "I'll make this easy on you, just send me the papers and I'll sign" text.

I'm spiraling guys. I know that I have to stick to this line. It's ripping my heart in two. Deep breath KG. Deep breath and tell yourself that you don't want to be with someone who is blatantly cheating on you.

KG