Today I'm feeling a bit resentful. H is off looking for happiness while I manage kids, bills, etc. The funny thing is I have not been happy either but I choose to be responsible. The more I think about this new H, the more I despise him for being so selfish, narcissistic, and self-centered. Definitely not the person I married.

I cried like a baby this morning after my prayer/devotional time, grieving my old H and the marriage I once took for granted.

H and Me - Both 45; S13 and D9
BD - 11/2019
Married 14 years; Together 20 years