You will not die

[ATPeace]

I can so relate to this thread and I too will confirm that you will
Not die

Grow you must and understand healthy boundaries and go find yourself

I think I spun for about 2 years believed I was DBusting I wasn’t I avoided so many things told myself I was doing XYZ when in reality this was not the case

Without the help and perseverance from many of the regulars who I am sure came to despair with me many a time I could have easily given up

Three years on I am three stone lighter have some amazing friends both male and female I have been out dated had fun and the loss of my W no longer hurts so much and truly I am finding my happiness

You will be ok

All the best and keep posting