Hi Rushton,

Thank you for your support, and recognition that we are pretty much feeling the same. Reading your story, no matter how we got to this stage, fundamentally we have similar starting points in our journey. I think this is the process we have to go through, not be afraid to feel the things we do because they are real and driven as a result of introspection.

We are truly seeing things, what matters most because we have been given the time to do so. I keep telling myself that, whilst i'd rather we weren't in this situation that has forced a period of introspection, it has most certainly been needed.

This is a chance to be the best version of ourselves, to hit the reset button. It has upon reflection taught me what is and isn't important. Lives with kids in tow are 100mph, dealing with the day to day, the mundane, the highs and lows, yet now i realise i didn't fully appreciate it all, and let a lot of the good things slide.

After a tough day personally on Christmas day, we spent yesterday together with friends and their kids. It was a great day, and we all relaxed and it was interesting for me that it felt like pre BD days. We had fun.
I hope my W will see it the same way, to see that we are good together and our family thrives as a result. Who knows, i'm just taking things at face value, presenting myself as the best version of me at this point in time (i've a long way to go) and see where it takes me.

Stay strong, brother - We have got this. We can do it. Keep posting, i will be following your story.

Chaz